“For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under the heavens.” Eccl. 3:1 (NLT)
I have so many ideas swirling around in my mind, I don’t know which one to work on first. As I started praying about what to do, I started thinking about all of the ways I’ve heard God tell me to slow down over the years. I never listened.
Now I’m trying to listen more. I’m trying to trust more. I do have enough time to do everything God wants me to do here on earth. I may not have enough time to do all I want to do. I will have time to do everything God wants me to do.
Deciphering what God wants me to do is what can be tricky. The constant battle going on between what I want versus what God wants is a real tension. Knowing I should be praying for the person who hurt me. Knowing I should forgive the offense. Knowing I’m to live my life in moderation. Knowing my ultimate job here on earth is to love God with all my heart, mind, body and soul AND love others as myself. (Mark 12:30-31) Knowing I should do all of those things. but doing them is a constant battle.
I don’t want to pray for my enemies. I don’t want to forgive their offense. I don’t want to live my life in moderation. I want to eat the whole pie! And there are times I don’t want to love God. There are times I don’t want to love others.
There are times I don’t want to pace myself. I don’t want to make a plan. But that is exactly what God is calling me to do. Pace myself. It’s a challenge I battle constantly. That’s why I found this verse today. To remind myself there is time. It doesn’t all have to be done today.
What a novel concept for someone like me.